By Melody Kramer

Do you ever feel like quitting?  Do you ever just feel like walking out? I do. There have been many days I just feel like I can’t do this anymore (motherhood). I can’t quit, and I can’t walk out, I am a mom!

 I’m an autism mom raising two autistic boys, and it’snot easy. Motherhood is not easy with autism children or not.  There are days when I cry, there are days when I don’t think I can do it and there are days when I wonder “will I survive”?  I question myself often, am I doing the right thing, am I raising them right? Motherhood is all about the good, the bad, the happy, and the sad. I chose motherhood, autism chose me. As long as at the end of the day I can say I did my best, and I gave it my all, then all is good. 

 I’m not walking out, and I’m not quitting.  I may not have sick days, I may not have vacation days, and no pay is involved but what I do get is unconditional love from my sweet kids.  I am their rock. I am there for them, and they trust me. I may have my”off” days and feel like giving up, but my kids know that I am here every day, seven days a week for them. When I became a mother, I made a commitment regardless of how tough my days can get I will never quit nor walkout. 

Melody Kramer (aka Autism Mom) is the Editor and Publisher of Macaroni Kid: Jurupa Valley-Eastvale and Macaroni Kid: Riverside. You can email her at autismmomofboys@gmail.com.